Nahh.. I post liao lur x) Girlish bo arh?? O.o XD

Shhhh~ My sister clothes lai Hehehe /.\

Today just post photo nia laa. Have nothing to say /.\

11 December 2011

今天我简直疯了啦 ><

我发泄、中墙、打拳击.. 之后打太出力，手的伤口裂开，流血啦.. 然后手也红红的 ><

发泄完后，我问我自己"为什么要发泄??为什么要伤害自己??" 我的答案是，我不知道 /.\

发泄完了，我累了，我睡了。 醒来了，我有吃不下 >@< 算了吧..

我很讨厌这种感觉。今天的心情总是灰色的、好讨厌!! Ishh 郑悦沛!!! 你是搞什么鬼啊?? 你心乱什么啊? 神经病! >@< 

儿子、不好意识哦。你有困难，我帮不了你，因为我好烦 /.\ 可能我回你会有点在敷衍你吧。遇到这种事，有时要狠心一些，这也是为他好。至于你和她、我今天真的不懂要怎么和你聊，我想不到该怎么说，我头脑空空的 /.\

我真的写不出东西了，很难受就是了

Just a simple diary..

Yeah yeah yeah!! I saw you, lunar eclipse XDD

Hmmm Yesterday mood very high then very low.. ><

What's happening now huh!? Where is the happiness go huh?? Come suddenly then gone suddenly?

Alright.. Nothing will stay always x)

Found this yesterday. Damn like it ♥♥ XD

It Is Just A Post =]

I'm aiming for someone I really need for all and capture you down. Once I press down the button, all the screen in front of me is just you, only you. You started to walk into my life, colour my life, makes my life more colourful, just like a photo coloured the camera's screen. A nice photo would have a meaningful story behind it, and it means our life. I appreciate every photo I take, just like I appreciate everyone in my life. I won't give up any chances to take the screen I like, just like I won't give up the one I like. To take a photo, I need a camera. To create a colourful and meaningful life, I need you. In my life, I wish to have you x)

This one is for you and me, living out our dreams.

Once I decide  to do so, I will persist to the end.

Someone, I love you ♥

Happy Friday Night x)

Whoo~ Today super duper Happy!! XD

Hmmm Actually you for guys, maybe it is just a simply things, but I do feel happy of its x)

At night, I went back to my 'old house'_ Queensbay Mall XD

We ate KFC Hahaha I can say that I'M SO FULL =O

Some more I'm happy that mama feeds me once again OhMyGod!! Childhood refreshing in my mind x)

Then we went for shopping laa, window shopping! Went to bought clothes for New Year Wee xD

Hmmm.. Show you my new clothes har x)

Chiang chiang~ Got girlish tiok bo arh?? O.o

 This few days I keep wearing girlish shirt =O

Hey.. See! I'm improving neh XD You lak, changed me into zhabo style >@<

Okay.. Then we took picture with the decoration of Christmas there.

I saw this lengzai there too. This is what we called "男的帅、女的美"?? 

The boy really handsome lak. I like his nose most xD

Hahaha After that, I started kisiao with my SISTER!! We talked and laughed like a siao po =X

*Walk walk walk* suddenly a girl take a deep breath then "piak!!" Omo My butt kena hit! Oh my god! I had been frightened /.\ Then my sis laughed loudly Ish! I told her I will take my revenge. Guess what she said?? "怨怨相报何时了? 最好的报仇方法是活得比他更好" Both of us laughing like a mad XD Then I tell her "所以我现在笑得这么开心、因为我要活得比你好" LOL

This is the way we talk when we kisiao-ing. It's sweat, but I like it x)

我就是希望我和家人可以每天这么的疯狂、这么的幼稚、无聊，因为在这疯狂中、幼稚中、无聊中，我仿佛找到了我想要的温暖、我想要的快乐、我想要的幸福... 我想要的幸福，其实很简单 x)  你感受到的，我感受到的、就是我的幸福啦。够简单吧 ^^

Uhh 我发现现在的人好容易吃醋耶、有点问题哦 /.\ 不过有在乎、才有吃醋嘛 x)

Oh yea! Hey you.. Why don't wanna continue tuition at there huh??! Hate your mama >@< You come back here laa wey.. Don't have you there, I almost dying lak >< No one will help me dy x( Those tarpo keep disturbing me by using eye contact!! I hate them well Ish! I warn you huh, Sunday tuition you better don't change it. If not that disgusting boy will do those disgusting things to me!! TT

I'm the one who feel contented easily. Even someone do a little thing to me, I will also feel happy ^^

"只有你才能给我安全感，你是我唯一的依靠，我只要你给的拥抱" 我喜欢这句啦 XD

我是一个很没安全感的人 x)

=[

Hello.. x)

Actually today when I woke up,  my mood was good.

But just because of a movie, it changed my mood.

Ah Ma, I so damn miss you TT

I cried when I heard what the girl said. Yea, what she says, is what I feel.

Ah Ma

有好多好多东西我从来没和你说. 

我好想和你说、可是我不善于表达自己.

很多很多事情我想对某个人说、可是当我要说的时候、我说不出来.

最后只能把想说的、想表达的, 通通藏起来.

我是一个, 看起来很容易沟通的人、一个善于表达自己的人、一个很乐观的人

对.. 有时我是这么一个人. 但、在另一方面, 我不是.

我很爱胡思乱想、我的心情很容易被影响、我很情绪化.

当我不开心、生气时, 我好想和关心我的人说我发生了什么事, 但我表达不出, 就只好把它们给藏起来了, 所以很多时候我会让大家非常非常的担心.

不过幸好我有很多"朋友"咧 x) 有风、有拳击、有跆拳道、有篮球、有墙壁、还有丢东西. 所以和他们相处后, 我的心情会好很多. 虽然它们都会让我很累、手会痛、不过老实说, 很爽啊! XD

Hmmmm 我想说、我爱胡思乱想、我很容易开心、我很容易满足、我很容易感动、我爱逞强、我爱把自己的感受藏起、我泪浅、我爱掩饰我自己、我喜欢笑, 因为笑可以让每个人都开心、我喜欢让我身边的人都开心、我喜欢保护有危险的人、我喜欢做一个乐观的人 x)

但我很没有安全感, 所以当一个人对我好, 给我安全感, 我会傻傻的陷进去. 

I like here as this is the only place where I can express my feeling

7 November 2011

Hello, I'm here again x)

Hahaha So damn happy now xD

You know why??

First, Hui Ying arh,

welcome back to my world har x)

Some more I'm happy to chat with you again.

I feel strange with you x(

But never mind lak, at least I saw the happy you once again.

Ha! 邱清菊!! 原来你也有妈妈的一面 xDD

恭喜你啦、有学到我hor XD

Okay.. Beside this, I wanna say,

KhooChengKeok! You too bored is it?

Type those thing for me Uhh

我大人不跟你小人计较 xP

不过你好像第一次跟我说"I love you" hor??

哈哈、那我就放过你lak、看我多好内 XD
Oh yea! I deleted a lot posts,
It didn't mean I don't wanna let you guys see it.
I just feel that, those thing were over, it might have an ending.
So those unhappy things, just let them over x)

GD I know what you worry of,

I'm sorry for making you such worry.

Yea, I'm selfish.

But I really don't know what to do,

Tell you that I'm moody, it make you worry.

Didn't tell you, you worry me more.

I didn't tell is just don't wanna let you to worry me.

Sometimes, I really feel that I'm a failed partner.

I always make you worry, make you jealous, make you sim tia.

This is all I always did!

I hate it a lot and a lot. I dislike this kind of me!

When I'm jiak chor-ing,

I don't know why, I don't feel like to tell you.

Then I act like nothing happened, and continuously text with you.

I always hide the jealousy of mine.

I always act like I'm not jealous, but I really jealous.

I'm a kind of stupid girl, and this is what we always say about, Miss Cancer /.\

其实我觉得我很很很幸福咧、和别人比起来, 我幸福很多 =]
我们三姐妹、不亏是姐妹嘛hor XD 我们三个都那么幸福 ^^
臭二姐!!谈恋爱了都不说咯. Post 在 facebook 了才知道你谈恋爱了 ><
你很不够意思嘛你! 算料.. 你开心就好啦 x)
今天第18天lur, 还有两天就二十天料 xD
很遗憾咧、第一个月都不能去庆祝 >@<
不过24号我们还是会出去啦、到时再补回吧
Oh yea!
I heard someone said
10th of December -- Moon eclipse
14-15th of December [midnight] -- Meteor Rain
23th of December -- Meteor Rain
Whoo~ Is these real?? If it is, I wanna watch leh XD
Well.. That's all. Night yaa x)

7 Nov 2011

Okay...

我发现原来我很容易吃醋内 >@<

女生的吃醋心都那么重么?

Fine, I don't wanna talk about it /.\

Uhh..

Today is just a simple day for me.

Hmm Holiday and I'm getting fatter TT

So after today, I going to on diet XD

Some more I wanna grown taller Yay!

Okay,

Bad news come, I hurt my left-hand!

Tuesday

I went to aunt's church help her.

Suddenly a thing dropped

and mostly hit a little boy,

So I quickly pushed the boy away.

In the end

The thing hit me and my hand was bleeding!

好心没好报丫 TT

But honestly,

I felt happy XD

I saved a little boy leh Whoo xD

Hmmm So now I feel hard to do things.

Stupid hand! Please recover more faster huh x)

Okay..

Everything end up by the word "Bye bye"

4.12.11

Whoo Happy Birthday to You!! XD

What a happy day Hiak hiak hiak xD

Oh no! Sister ask me to wear more girlish!!! TT

So I wear this =O

I like this one XD

Vain ka bui si /.\

Photo Taken by sister

Cute bo cute bo?? XD

cause we are too boring xD

Pig face [>@<] XD

Paiseh laa, very cho lor hor Shh x)

 Hmm Pun teh nak wear this eh x)

Okay... Finish laa my vain photo XD

Now talk into the happy time huh.

I go there lur,

many people that I don't recognize >@<

We BBQ downstairs

Uhh Sipek hot leh

Then I decided to take off my jacket!

Ahemm While I'm taking off,

Many people staring on me luu

Keong po sii, paiseh sii

Then I quickly wore back /.\

But in the end I still took off =-=

Haha! That little baby boy so damn cute leh.

I think he likes me =O

As he keep on following me LOL

After eating,

We play true or dare!!

The first time kena me,

They punished me as set my hair!! Damn it

Second time is Say 'I hate You' to her,

Or hug the boy which same age with me ><!

Third time_ Drink whole cup of beer Oh my god!!

But luckily I didn't drunk XDD

Then go home dyy..

That's all x)

Chap Pe Lang xD

Hellooo, I'm back! xD

我知道我很久没写blog啦 Hee

放假、一个字"闷"! ><

每天都在发霉...

Aiyur.. I have a lot of things to talk about leh

Hmmm, Lai~ I ban ban kong laa har x)

19.11.11

Hmm went to Anthea's house,

pun teh nak BBQ eh,

mana zai ho lang snatch ki liao TT

Then we go beach there play lur..

Me, ST, pig, Anthea and CK

play water play ka song song Hahaha!

Conclusion -- All wet! =O

Then we went to Anthea's house for bathing, eating, chatting and playing.

Stupid Liu Chiu!

Bath for more than 30 minutes I think.

Zo ka wa sticky ka bui sii *Geram* Uhh

Then I didn't eat lur,

made she stared on me!

My god, I'm so scare x(

Okay then we play true or dare laa,

Actually we're not playing it! /.\

Finally! We took a photo Hiak hiak hiak XD

After that we went to Anthea's room *Chatting...*

Okay, 很diam的说 " I'm tired!" ><!

.......  Go back dy x)

Go home still wanted to 刺激我!!!

他妈的不爽噜其实、

Bo huat laa.

我又累窝、所以睡觉!!!

Reached home.. Totally moody /.\

Then online, waiting my son online

Luckily got him accompanied!

Then I feel like wanted to accept him nur

Asked son opinion and hers too

很遗憾的说

I couldn't keep this secret always TT

我告白啦 =-=

Then I offline, offed my phone and sleep!

But seriously, I can't fall asleep ><"

20.11.11

Honestly, 我的心情还没平复..

但之后想通了、和她还是老样子噜

我们聊聊聊、聊到晚上还在聊 /.\

Okay.. Then suddenly she asked me wanna try to in a relation?

Oh my f' god!

I never think of this before.

Okay.. After get son's opinion,

I accepted!

Sooo 我恋爱啦 /.\

21-24.11.11

Hmmm I have nothing to say.. /.\

25.11.11

Happy Anniversary Mum and Dad x)

Stay sweet forever yaa.

Hmm Don't quarrel too much kay,

I'll scare of it x)

Okay.. Say something 'ewww'

I love you both forever x)

1.12.11

Yo! Last month of the year.

Time flies so fast!

Going to work hard next year for PMR

Oooh, sound scary TT

Okay.. First meet after 'that' =O

Hey friends, miss you guys so much x)

Sadly, I have nothing to say suddenly Oh no! XD

Hahaha Son, I knew you sipek beh syok right LOL

However, we still got talk in the end ^^

After Redbox,

We went to ting ting place.

F' you! Stupid spider game!

You look so eww don't you know Grhhh!

Made me play beh tiok basketball game!!!

Hmm Suan liao ><

Then they went Kim Gary for mum mum tu go back laa

*OKay.. So you all saw what I wore right?? Yea, I knew it isn't ZHABO laa.

I try my best dy laa, I really can't do it what /.\

Okay.. I will train myself to be more girlish laa har.

Almost one year didn't wear girlish clothes dy, feel so strange ><*

17 Nov 2011

听这里、

我喜欢你!

今天我不知为什么、

我会问你为什么这几天你、Gina和慧滢怪怪的、

之后我也不懂为什么我会暗示你我喜欢着一个人、

你一直问、

我说那人你认识的、

我说我告诉那人我喜欢他不是一件好事、

我说那人肯定不会喜欢我、

你说是哪补习的吗

你说: 你从未去尝试，又怎么知道那人不喜欢你、

你说或许你真的不知道那个人、

'那个人'

一直都是你、

不是别人、

我想以聪明的你、

你一定猜到是谁..

水瓶、

我和你很有缘、

在我身边的总有水瓶、

所以我很很很了解水瓶。

我和水瓶还真的纠缠不清。

这次不管怎么样、

我真的不想再主动了、

主动的后果都一样、

况且我和你、

是根本没结果、更加没有开始

11.11.11 of Taeryan

Haa! Back here Wee

Today I really feel that i'm so damn happiness leh.

I promised to be her one day gf.

So we were getting out with your friend.

At first,

I saw you carrying a box of thing,

Then you passed it to me.

After that,

We went for a walk,

talking around and we played 'ting ting'.

Oh my god! You like to play basketball too

And you are so pro in it you know? xD

You're sooo good,

you some more taught me how to aim and shoot it accurately.

But.. You hold my hand while you teaching me,

Don't you realize it? O.o

Then we go eat mum mum luur.

You're such a considerate boy,

just like her.

Oh no! You learnt drum!

Don't you know?

You are a kind of my dream 'man' xDD

Okay.. After filled our stomach,

you took me to the seaside,

We play and talk again with your friends.

Haha, your friend really funny,

And some of them were so sweet with their partner x)

You suddenly asked me 'can I hug you?'

Then you straightly hug me!

Oh no no no no no..

Okay lak, fine liao lak,

As long as I promised you leh =-=

Special for you_ 牛奶慧

This is my first post which is write in chinese.

It's just because of you,

Saw Tsu Hui,

ILY and I miss you so damn much now TT

牛奶慧,

我好糊涂丫、

我既然怎么想都想不起我们是怎样认识的.

真糟糕!!

你是我生命中,

好重要的人物、朋友

每次不开心、

我都有你陪着.

你真的不喜欢不开心的气氛、

每次只要每个人静静的、

你闷的时候、

你都会把气氛烤热、

做些好笑的、可爱的

让大家开心、欢笑

你、好伟大 x)

我和你拥有非常多的回忆、

很抱歉、

在写给你的信里、

我写不出什么、

因为我好舍不得你、

我好想哭、

在我影像中、

我和你的第一个回忆是_

我和你玩得超疯的、

我们拿粉笔来丢彼此、

来画你我的衣服、

你还记得么?

之后我们还拿纸来折、

然后把它放在橡皮圈那

射来射去的、

我还射到你蛮多次的、哈哈

之后还弄到代课老师一直看我们、

因为我们一直笑 xDD

有一天、

我们不知做什么project

然后要分组.

哪里知道

想和对方同一组的我们、

都无法同一组.

你应该很失望吧!

因为我当时也真的挺失望的噜

不懂做么事、

你就这样的哭了、

你真的把我吓坏啦!

那时是我第一次看见你哭耶、

我还以为我把你弄哭了、

很有罪恶感 Hee~

但、这也好啦

这样才让我体会到、

原来你真的是我的好朋友、

我们谁也离不开谁 x)

接下来就是你闷闷时所创造的回忆啦、

你还记得吗?

你看到我抄国语的东西、

然后你叫我给你抄、

这也能解闷啊?

哈哈、你解闷的方法也蛮好笑的 xD

可是你真的把它给抄完了、

还模仿我的字到挺像的、

你变态啊你 =O

哈哈哈、

美术节噜..

你还真无聊嘛.

竟然拿装画纸的罐来变魔术、

什么你们看铪、*摔罐两下*

什么都没有哦、

之后又摔大大力几下、

以为画纸会掉下来、

哪里知道魔术失败、

哈哈哈~笑死我噜 XDDDD

之后你死都要摔画纸出来、

哪里知道整个罐喷掉!!!

洼、笑到我肚子痛.

现在想起、

我还是会笑得想疯婆这样内 Hehehe

这一次、

你剪头发噜..

哪里知道头发剪得太多、

Then 你一直说'我的mo' TT

哈哈、弄到我一直向歪、

一直笑...

你丫你、说了几天才肯停、

真的不累咩? O.o

之后不久、

你换了眼镜、

然后跑来问我'你觉得我有什么不一样吗?'

我没观察到的、

然后你还讲我没你的心、

之后才知道你换了眼镜、

你还一直问我'美吗美吗?'

好啦好啦、

很美lak x)

还记得你绑牙后、

你完全不能说话、

你说很辛苦噜、

然后那个LuiLengLeng啊、

还故意要作弄你、讲你、

你跟我说你不爽她、

说真的、

我也不爽她将你的时候、

欠打到~~~

你绑牙后、

你连讲话都辛苦、

一整天静静的、

我有点被吓到、哈哈

好啦、我不想再写了、我会哭 x)

牛奶慧、我好想你、

你知道不?

昨天我做你的东西做到4点、

之后我脑海里全都你我和你的回忆、

弄到我一直哭一直哭、

我哭了很久、

才恢复心情、

所以搞到5点多才睡、

6点都我有爬起来、

我真的睡不着 TT

今天去学校的时候、

一看到你的时候、

我都有个冲动想抱你、

也在我一看到你的时候我好想哭丫 ><

今天真得好难受、

我一看到你、

眼泪就在我的眼眶打转、

之后和你聊天、

我发现你也很想哭、

可是你一直忍、就像我一样 x)

在最后一节的时候、

我们给你送礼物了、

在老师叫你出去外面和我们说话时、

你的眼睛有泪水、红红地说我没话跟他们说、

可是我知道你好多想说、

你也和我一样害怕你会哭.

最后一节简直难过极了、

我的眼泪一直要流下来、

我看着你那种不舍的眼神、

我更加舍不得你、

最后一句'淑慧、我们爱你!'、

我不敢喊、

因为我哭了、我的心真的狠狠的哭了

牛奶慧、

我想你、我爱你

我们都好爱你丫

你去到哪里要珍重丫

还有啊、你的Milo铪、

喝完了记得要丢啦、

在那里没有人像我那么好帮你丢的哦、

哈哈、我知道我不要脸lak, 不用你讲 xP

牛奶慧、

再见啦~

记得要回来嗯 x)

Exactly To You =)

Hey..

I knew you are good to me,

I knew you won't give up,

I knew you like me,

I knew I really knew it.

But sorry,

I can't like you.

My heart is too small,

It can't contain two person in the same time.

Yea, Maybe I should give up her,

And like you.

But..

It's hard.

At the first time,

I had listed you as my 'brother'.

Aren't I'm afraid,

Aren't I have some distance with you.

You're a good good guy,

I know I must appreciate you,

But it's too late,

My heart were within someone.

Even if I wanted to,

But just 'wu sim bo lat' XD

Someone asked me to give up her,

And in a relationship with you.

But sorry,

I can't do this,

I can't just because to give up her and in a relationship with you,

What if I can't give up her?

Then, you will be hurt.

Some more I really don't wanna in a relationship with someone.

I will understand it right?

Actually,

I did afraid I'll like you.

Because you really treat me very good.

You saved me when I miss a step and almost fall down.

You asked me to sleep earlier, if not will more 'kan kor'

You accompanied me when I'm alone,

You sing song when I asked you to sing for me.

You protected me to prevent someone hurt my hand.

All you did are just like her,

Don't you know??

Thursday you told me that you wanna give me a surprise on Sunday.

Then after quite a long time,

You asked me,

What will happen if you hug me.

I think you wanna hug me right?

I really wish to be absent that day,

But mum wanted me to got TT

I really hope that you'll respect the choice I made laa.

You are good guy,

So you may have a good companion,

She isn't me.

Jia You  Jia You Jia You!! =)

5.11.11

Lalala..

Today was my elder sister's convocation XD

I went there with a moody mood.

After all the preparation,

They went into the hall.

How about me??

I had being left outside the hall TT

Alright,

Guess who I met?

I met the boy who gave me letter,

The boy who is English educated Whoo =O

And he is the boy who like me Hee

When he walked out from the DK's door,

I almost gong ki laa.

Then my mind were on the sentence,

'Aneh wu ian??'

While he saw me,

He straightly walked towards me.

He accompany me.

We talked,

We ate,

We sang XDD

Oh My God,

He sang for me Hahaha

His voice really nice leh.

Then of cause he forced me to sing back /.\

Hmm,

He really a good guy laa,

He knew that my hand was hurt,

So when we were at the place where is full of people,

He protected me to depends someone hurt my hand.

Okay..

Finally, the convocation is end!

So my parents and I were aiming for food XD

We went to Straits Quay for a walk.

Then we went to Gurney,

meet my sister and eat our DINNER! Wee

Hmm,

I sms with HY,

I told her what happen today.

When she know it,

Her reply was making me dying.

Her reactions is_ 你干嘛? 搞外遇?

What The Heck..

I thought you are the one who know my feeling well,

But... This make me disappoint.

GD,

I miss you...

When I were at my sister's school,

I wish you might text me,

I wish you might accompany me.

But until now [ 11:14 ],

You still didn't appear.

The feeling just like someone threw a stone on me,

hurt me badly.

When I were at Straits Quay and Gurney,

My mind were full of you.

I really wish that I could rush to yours house.

GD,

Why do you so bad??

When you need me,

I always beside you.

But when I need you,

You never here.