All For These Days

At first, everything had past,
so I hope laogong don't be emo when saw others below :(

Talk about TingYi them first ba..
Seriously, when I heard they say that you're po-ing TingYi.
What on earth is that?! Why will they say that?
If others misunderstood you, I will care but wont that mad.
But for them, I really get mad.
I hate people saying my husband bad words or misunderstand her.
As I hate that too.
Sometimes, I asked them " Do you feel that Angely had changed? "
" Do you will that she is po-ing you? "
Im afraid the answers are yes.
About just now both of yours argument?
Hmm.. I just did what I should do.
Telling what I should say.
If they couldn't understand us and continue acting like this,
I won't care anymore.
Actually Im not choosing, I stand by you not because I love you or what else.
Just because I feel that you have no wrong.
As a two years friends, I think they should understand you
but not keep thinking that you have changed, and blacken your name.
I hope that both of you could understand what each other thinking.
And stop this argument. Nobody wanted to lose this friendship.
Yea, she had insult you for many times.
I can feel how disappointed you are, how pain is your heart.
Laopo hu hu, laogong's heart dont pain :( </3

Now it's for Emily?
Okay.. I tried all my best to accept her, at last I did it.
But I accept her doesn't mean that I like her much.
Yes, she is caring. Telling others her secret.
But not simply scolding bad words, please.
Even she is not scolding me, but how the reader feels?
Scolding bad words is super normal, not it's not cool at all.
Laogong don't you feel that?
Once you talked with her, friend with her.
You are scolding bad words in front of me even you know I not that like.
How happy I am when I finally decided to unfriend her.
No others. Just because I wont see anything about her, know anything about her.
And we wont or never argue because of her.
Actually, she is innocent.
She felt hard because of my childishness.
She felt hard because of ours arguments.
She felt hard because of scaring me to get mad.
From now on, I can just treat her as a memories.
Treat her as stranger.
Sorry for letting you such hard to chatting with my husband.
Sorry for letting afraid every minutes every second.
Stay sweet with your 葉沛儿 yea :)
p/s Dont call her 葉沛儿 la, it sounds like my name ><

Now for my husband.
Seems like a have a lots to say about, but it's so hard to say.
I try my best to express it in words okay? :)
Seriously, Im glad that you finally tell me what you are thinking.
That time Im not purposely read your diaries.
I just wanted to write something for you and opened it.
When I saw you set password, I knew there are something in there.
For knowing what are you thinking, I decided to unlock and read it.
Laogong.. Sorry, sorry for making such hard and exhaust.
Thanks for always tolerate me silently.
Thanks for always tolerate me and changing the way we talk to avoid arguments.
I shouldn't thought that you had totally changed.
I should know your temper.
Really sorry laogong..
I thought that I understand you much, but in the end Im the one who don't know everything.
Just now when I read your diaries, I felt that Im a failure..
That's why I dont wanted you to hug me.
I have no qualification to ask for forgiveness.
I always think of myself, I thought that I have think about you.
But actually not.
Sorry laogong.. Last time Im not initiative, I had changed.
This time let me change again alright?
I know Aquarius wont tells out what they feel easily.
So I very happy and glad when saw that post.
You finally told me why are you such happy when chatting with Emily.
You finally told me what do your feel of me and them.
Laogong.. I really hope that you will tell me everything by yourself,
but not guessing myself and say it out.
Then finally you tell me yes.
I remember last time Im that kind of girl, and now I tell you everything.
Just like the co case, that's all guessing by myself, fortunately it's right.
Laogong, sometimes I can understand you well, but sometimes not.
We cant always have same opinions and thinking.
So at least try to tell me okay?
If you are not happy with me,
If you unhappy with something,
If you dislike my anything,
If you like which friend,
If you feel that you miss your sister,
If you...
write a diary and send me.
Don't write it and keep it yourself, okay?
Sometimes I will thought what I think was right when you didn't tell me what do you feel.
Sometimes I will guess here and there for the reason you do that.
Sometimes I will cry when I don't know everything.
Just like just now..
When I dont know everything, I will guess or even think of nonsense.
Laogong.. On the surface, you look strong and can decide everything well.
But actually you are fragile, soft and hesitant.
You always miss the past too.
When I saw you are acting strong, my heart will pain.
I know you dont want me to worry such much.
But don't you know? I will worry more if you like this.

For this time, you have no wrong.
You don't have to change.
You are still yourself, you have no changing.
I just.. I just don't understand something.
But now I had understood.
Sorry laogong, I nearly become one of them.
Luckily you saw my inbox, if not I will never know what you feel, what you think.

Laogong, I want to be your lian ti yin.
I want to be your real wife.
A lian ti yin, a real wife can know what you thinking.
Can you tell me whatever you think, whatever you feel, wherever you go?
December.. Please no more tears, then I will love you much.

I have a question, why do you throw my phone when you continue read what I wrote?

Tomorrow is ours important day.
I really wish and hope that we can be same class next year.
Ang gong po pi * begging :( *

Lastly, I love you laogong.
No more breaking up's word. Anti it.

01.11.12

Today's post, as you wish, I write for you in Chinese :)
Hmm today's post will be emo, as Im 自我检讨 - ing.

好啦、我开始我要说的东西了。
今天早上的事.. 好、是我的错 我承认 :)
不过没办法 我被人欺骗、背叛实在太多次了。
今天当我去到那里时、我是脸带着笑容的 就因为那么几句话、我误会了..
呵 也没办法丫 我对类似背叛的东西太敏感了 :)
而且当我以为和我最亲的朋友“背叛”我时、我的心情再也好不起来了

去厕所回来后、想和你说话 开心回..
结果回来的是一句 你有发什么神经??!
哈哈 我的臭脾气始终回来了 xD
进了 stadium.. 起初我没想要哭
不过当我眼睁睁看见我那所谓的好朋友一个一个走向你
我无法忍住眼泪..
我到底怎么了吗?? 好可笑啊 :)
留了几滴难过的泪、很虚伪地和JinYuan说 我很坚强的、我很好 :)
忍住眼泪、往上看 :)
JinYuan 回我说 别这样、你这样我也很难受、很心疼.. 不要忍着 哭吧..
一个普通朋友、比好朋友来得好
我做人、失败

上到巴士、特地留位给你 结果你去走掉了..
心里的痛、更痛一层
想哭却不能哭.. 一个人的滋味、既新鲜又难受
没关系、也因为这样 我坚强 我不哭 :)

下了巴士、还是JinYuan陪在我身边..
结果不久、你来了
哄一哄我.. 没那么难受了
辛苦你了吧?
明明不是你的错、却还要你哄我

老公、对不起

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有时候、我真的很好奇在你和别人眼里我究竟是什么样的女朋友?
是好是坏? 霸道 野蛮 还是 体贴呢?
你说我辛苦、我看辛苦的是你吧..

原谅我的坏脾气、原谅我霸道
原谅我不懂和别人说心事..
总算进步了吧?
以前的我、自我保护意识强、不会和别人分享我的心事
现在、我开始会说出来、即使我不会表达

以前的我、很有个性、不会体贴人家
如今、我放下了我的个性、只是臭脾气还在
呵 我会改的、让你不辛苦
让你幸福、是我的责任

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大家、对不起了..

28th of April and May :)

28.04.2012

A day that is very hard to forget. A horrible mishap in my life. The first accident I met. When I heard the word 'accident' before that, I were totally no idea with it. How horrible was it?? Yea, of cause everyone feel that it is very horror. But once who really experience it, the feeling was totally different. Stories, movies were right, all the memories are truly flashed back all in your mind.

These are what I felt :)

MAY!!

01.05.2012

SHE came to my house with a big great surprise! Thanks laogong :) The first surprise which really surprised me xD Everyone saw I cried!! Lak seh ar :s We had a lot of fun today Heee I LOVE YOU GUYS ♥♥♥♥♥ :p

Everyone said that my bathroom like hotel's one xD Like it right?? Next time come to my bathroom sleep la :p XiaooBen and Son!! You guys really vain and sampat neh :D Capture photoS in my bathroom! Somemore being rushed by my daddy LOL!

*P/s my jie jie's sound very geli that day :s BUT her voice when she sing very nice leh :))

Time for home!

Paiseh, I really unwilling to let you guys go home, especially you :( Almost cry that time, but I didn't Hahaha -.- :p

04-06.05.2012

4th

KL trip! Three days two night. What a torment in this trip.. Leg's wound still haven't fully recovered, but I have to walk for sooo long Uhh :(

5th

Wake up early in the morning.. Going to cousin's house to lim teh. Saw many babies there. Awww so cute ♥.♥

The bride so damn nice Heee :x 10something, started lost contact with her.. Huan lo si >< But it was the network problem /.\ At night, dinner time.. Wear nice nice, somemore make up! Heee you shen me ying mou har?? :p Oppsss! My little tooth dropped down when I was eating :s Siu sei yan la xDD

08.05.2012

Back to school!! Giving everyone a hug.. Miss all of them seriously. The feelings of back to school are extremely great xD Hug you tight tight!! ♥

14.05.2012

Hmmm Happy Valentine's Day??? I don't think it was a happy day.. /.\

20.05.2012

20120520 + 20052012 double 20, shuang bei ai ni, ting dao mei you?? :p

This day, a day full of happiness, even almost cried because of too much happiness. I really thought I was dreaming that day. Heee laogong, thanks for all the things you gave today. I LOVE YOU many many ♥ *kiss* :s

17-24.05.2012

EXAM!!!!

What had I did during exam?? Playing.. xD Always sleep late at night, sleep for an hour everyday. So?? Fall asleep during the test Hee :s

25.05.2012

With SHE kap mai absent for today :p Kit kuo miss die her >< :((

27.05.2012

Pak toh pak toh :pp

First - KFC for mum mum, ate a little of cheesssse, feel like to vomit :x

Then she gave me a present full of stars as mama scolded me last night.

Then go for movie - Man in Black 3. Very funny and nice :) Got secret in the cinema :p :X

Hmm then shopping, wear dress for her tim O.O

*Went home*

Oh great!! Mama said she is Sooo TB! Somemore asked that are we les. Frightened me lar :((

30.05.2012 ( midnight )

Feel very insecure in this night as I really very miss her and no light in my room! So?? I cried! Uhhh such useless girl! >< After that watch BARBIE xDD Im a little baby girl :pp Five almost six, we went to bed laa.

Thanks for accompanying me laogong, love ya :)

30.05.2012

She was not feeling well, very worry about her, very sim tia to see her like this :(( Twelve something, she tried to sleep. Me?? Keep looking at viber, as I scared that what if she find me when she cant sleep or woke up? So I wait until three something, and disturbed jiejie to confirm whether she sleep dy, then I finally disburden and went to bed :)

01.06.2012 ( midnight )

After hanging up the call, I started feel like to cry. Sorry laogong, I made you cried too :((

01.06.2012

A happy day turned into moody and full of quail day..

Laogong, remember yea, don't spam my wall, I will take double revenge :pp See how much I miss you :p

*BAD NEWS*

Crying again because a serious test come again.. I really afraid. What if she really know it? What if she oppose?? No she totally oppose!! HuaiDan, do not leave me no matter what, even my parents oppose us together, get it?? I really need you :(

Okay.. Fever again /.\

The End :)

Bla bla bla

Haloo haloo Holidays again >@<

Monday

Go hospital for the report. Oh yeah! I'm not in danger Whoo xD

Here bad news come, I being hiao by a GIRL! Oh mama! I'm not a T seriously @@ /.\

Tuesday

Hang out with Daaaa Huai Dan, XiaooBen, Son.. And met DaaaBen and Son's BeyyBeh xD

Lalalaa somemore met HooiChing, Stephanie and two stranger Weeee ^^

But very sad.. I didn't take any photo with you guys :((

Wednesday

Oh Nooo! Miss you sooo much dy :o

Morning tuition, at night tuition again, seeee I'mma a good girl xD
Iemm I don't mind you sit beside me, but I very mind you keep call me BAOBEI, that's disgusting! /.\

Facebook with sister. Iaooo miss you so damn much seriously TT Saw how fat daddy is.. O.O!

Daddy going to give birth! OH NO!!!
Hahahaha Saw it??? He can't button his button xDD

Night.. Daddy said he wanna keep fit! "Lets us do sit up" I'm laughing like siaopo. "Daddy, are ya sure you can do it with you BIGGGG stomach?? xD"
Daddy's face turns red and eyes started filled up with tears when 15th times Bha hahahaha XD

Thursday

Uhh Stupid idiot!! Are ya thought I'm a "chick"??? Gotta trouble troubles if YOU phone me again /.\ 4133402.. I'm still remember your phone well Bleeeekk :p

Hmmm Charm liao lur.. Just now happened something again.. Doctor, don't lie to me hmm, I trusted you x)

Hiemmm Grandma.. I pray for ya, mus t recover fast fast har, don't let someone worry and sad hmm ^^
Awww! 打死我都不敢摔头发了!! T^T

Lao gonggonggg, Nehhh.. Got girl tiok bo??? :p

/.\

Stupid headache, you totally ruin my mood today!

The day without friends, jokes and laughter are BORED! Sitting in front of the laptop, watching nothing, doing nothing. Mind thinking nonsense.

Those excite and happy were wasted. The day I'm waiting for a long long time, and I just missed it. 

Bad things keep happened these few days, I try hard to smile, to be happy. Finally there are something to makes me happy, but... How disappoint I am, how sad I am, how moody I am. Why don't you visit me another day? Why don't you never come today? I hate you seriously.

Oh god! Can you give at least one happy thing to cheer me up? I need it now, I really need it...

某些人, 我很严重的不爽你们! /-\ 我真的很没有心情 :(

不快乐, 却还要装快乐

我不是真正的快乐 x)

Talalalala I'm BORED! /.\

Feel like dying every holidays. Mengapa nak cuti huh!? Holiday makes me sipek miss you geh x(

Oh my mama! You trying to make me paiseh is it? o.O Say my what what very what. Iaooo paiseh nia :S I know you envy laaa :p

Hiak hiak! Just now too bored dy. I took my old phone and saw the massages.. Oh my god! I saw something made me sooooo surprise! :O
Iemmm Keep mo chang now T^T

小笨

你丫你、最近为么一直吓我的? 我知道我很容易被吓啦、因为我在乎你嘛..

唉.. 我知道我们现在的处境不一样了。以前的我和你一样、而现在的我却不再和你一样。今年又没和你同班、你在班上发生什么事我完全不知道. 你不开心时、我会比以前更担心你懂么? 最近的你很不一样、很让我担心. 信息一没快乐的表情、我就会担心害怕了. 我不希望你再这样下去、我希望你天天开心、所以从今天起我不会再和你说烦人的事、而天天哄你笑 x) 加油妹妹! 还有哦、以后叫我哥哥啦、这是我唯一可以当男的时候了 xD

阿恺

哈咯、我的“老婆” xDD 我没想到能和你这么好的咧、也没想到你会和我说那么大的秘密! 谢谢你的信任、我不会和人说的、放心 x) 我知道放下很难、或许一个月、半年、一年.. 或许很久很久、不过总有一天会放下的啦 : ) 放下的路程会很艰难的哦、所以要坚强点、和我一样 xD 你会比我辛苦咯、至少我不会天天见到他、而且他在很远很远的地方、想看都看不到。但你不想看、却一直看到、悲哀 /.\ 无论如何，和我的约定一定要做到! 没做到就打你屁屁了xp

儿子

最近你幸福啦hor?? 羡慕噜 :p 为么没对妈妈这样的? 吃醋啦喂 xD

明天要和我说什么jek?? 我的心lor lor luin啦 =D

是啦、你是很重色轻友啦。不过有谁不是在乎情人多过朋友的咧? 有的话站出来给我打 Blek

But hor.. 妈妈希望你不要那么重色轻友咧、这样也不好的、会弄朋友生气的, 至少改一些些铪 x)

28.1.12

Today go pat toh with Xiao Ben, Chengkeok, Pigpig Hee ^^

Actually before that, we met quite a lot problems, luckily in the end problems solved Yay!

We went to movie 心想事成, then play snooker xD XiaoBen ChengKeok keep shoot in white ball hor xDD So damn funny Bha haha By the way, ChengKeok also shoot in a lots coloured ball *Claps Claps* Hee

Pigpig arh.. You not feeling well must tell us kay? All of us will worry about you okay? ><

Go home go home laa. Bad news come! Mama don't wanna go home lak. She some more wanna go GURNEY! Shit you Tired ka bui si TT But I saw many ang mosss Mua hahaha ♥.♥

29.1.12
Unlucky Me TT Allergic the second times laaa Damn it! Some more flu and cough. Oh god, you really kidding me x( Now my 鼻子的空间 are full of fluid xD T^T 
Can't breath well narr >@<

若不是上帝睡着我不可能那么幸运, 能预见地球上七十亿分之一的你

谢谢你, 让我知道什么是幸福
谢谢你, 肯让我当你的另一半
谢谢你, 在我不开心的时候努力地安慰我

和你在一起的时候 总觉得自己是世界上最幸福的女人 
不知不觉中 我脸上的笑容已经显示出自己是那么地幸福快乐 ^^ 
This is something like a movie, and I don't know how it ends
But I fell in love with my best friend